psl: immortals vs vampires

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

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[rebornagain]

Why? I'm not a child, Chris, however I might look it.

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

You're asking me why after that? God knows I would have loved it if you could safely leave, I've never wanted to force you to stay, but I wasn't going to just assume you would be fine.

[rebornagain]

I left because staying with people that care about me is terrible for everyone involved! I was trying to get out of your life! It shouldn't matter if I was going to be fine or not!

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

Too Goddamn bad, because it does! It's mattered to me since you were Yves, and it isn't going to somehow stop mattering to me now!

[rebornagain]

--I'm not ever going to be okay, Chris! That's not how it works for me! So stop wasting your time and energy and care on someone who can't even give anything back!

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

[ looks him dead in the eye over his hands and— ]

No.

[rebornagain]

If this keeps up I'll ruin you!

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

Then that's my choice, isn't it? You don't think I didn't think about just letting you go?

[rebornagain]

If you thought about it you should have done it, for Pete's sake... Yves was just an act. Surely you know that by now. I'm not a good person.

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

[ rolls his eyes, starting to wind back down ]

Most of my friends aren't what I'd call good people. What about the person who's been living in my house?

[rebornagain]

What about him?

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

How much of that was an act? How much of this is an act?

[rebornagain]

All of it, always.

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

I suppose that's why you stayed in my lap for however long I was asleep instead of going out the door.

[rebornagain]

Yes, it is. [fuck]

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

[rebornagain]

[!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

...I don't actually doubt you're acting. But I know better than most than an act isn't always a lie.

[rebornagain]

What is that even supposed to mean?

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

"Fake it until you make it" is a saying for a reason.

How much do you think I act?

[rebornagain]

I'd say well over fifty percent, at least with me.

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

Averaged out, that sounds about right... still. My point is, even if that's an act, I act that way because that's how I want to be seen. Even if Yves and Yael were and are an act, they were how you wanted to be seen. ...Even if your reason for that was only wanting to make life easier for yourself, that's still...

[ trails off, makes a frustrated noise ]

That made more sense in my head. My point is I don't actually give much of a damn about the fronting, so if you're really going to continue trying to tell me what to do with my life you're going to have to pick a different tactic.

[rebornagain]

There are only so many ways one can be conveniently seen, as a child. Given specific parameters for ease, that number is smaller still. The ways I prefer to act as a child build up to how I prefer to act as an adult. In a word: unhindered. I keep to myself to continue to keep to myself, without being so isolated as to be considered antisocial, at least until I'm too old for most to consider it their business to interfere. That's all there is to it. There is nothing else to read into it. As for why I prefer nobody interferes with me, it's as simple as this. I will end myself permanently, or I will end the world.

[bitethehandthatfeeds]

Did you just entirely ignore the part where I said I didn't care why...

[ it's muttered more or less on autopilot as the rest of that sinks in, and there's a beat before he takes a deep breath and continues. ]

...you'll have to excuse me if I'm less enthusiastic about either of those things, particularly the later, but I'm not really that fussed about them either as far as reasons to kick you out of my life go.

[rebornagain]

Lack of enthusiasm is one thing, but not being fussed implies you think me the type to make empty threats.